I’ve noticed you’re trying to fall apart on me, so I thought I would let you know that I’m really not doing too well dealing with it. I’m stressed with school, I’m somehow getting sick again, and now you’ve shaken up the already unstable place I call home. Did you not know how much I already worry about my family? Is that why you decided to let this all happen while I’m 3000 miles away? It really isn’t fair of you to make me listen to my mom cry on the phone when there isn’t a way for me to get home soon. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this defeated.
The worst part is trying to make it seem like it isn’t that way. For the sake of everyone I have to interact with here, I know it’s important for me to keep my head together. Not to mention the fact that my grades can’t survive if I have another emotional breakdown. So life, I know your plan is already in action and there isn’t anything that can be done to go back, but please just tell me this is all you have planned for now. I’m hanging on by a wire that can’t hold anymore weight.
Sincerely,
A girl who can’t wait to be home for the holidays
