January 2010
27 posts
Poor old Michael Finnegan...begin again.
Looking back on this weekend, I have no clue what to make of it. The good things I was expecting had this way of turning out terribly wrong. Things I never would have thought could be good actually turned out to be pretty decent. I did more work for college stuff than I really even knew I had left. I actually had way less homework than I really thought I did. I watched even more movies than...
I never would have thought this.
Where are you now? As I’m swimming through the stereo I’m writing you a symphony of sound Where are you now?
This isn’t the way it’s supposed to be. These aren’t the roles you two are supposed to play. First of all, I’m glad that you still have the ability to make me happy…I’d kind of lost hope on that until tonight. And then there’s...
I know it's a bad day when...
neither my bestfriend nor the breakfast club make me feel any better.
Time is a rather curious thing.
If only circumstances would have allowed you to stay another hour…or even just another five minutes. I’m sure I’d still miss you this much, but at least there would be a few more memories by which I could miss you.
The super power of the shower.
There’s nothing better than taking a shower with no light but the dim gray shadows of the stormy weather barely peaking through the window. The sound of the rain against the window and the occasional clap of distant thunder paired with the shower water against the ceramic bath…it’s pretty much perfect. And then there’s just something about being showered that makes...
Attention deficit disorder, bi-polar disorder,...
I seem to have no focus today. Reading a book one chapter at a time. I’ll be at this all day. I just have too much on my mind. And I really don’t care for English class. It’s quite the predicament. I’m so tempted to just call my friend and ask him to come save me. Even though I know that means not getting this work done.
What's going on inside of me?
1) I’m trying really hard to not make this a big deal, but it sort of is. I want to call you so incredibly badly right now, but I’m kind of afraid of what might happen if I do. 2) I started trying because you were so upset when I wasn’t trying…I’m glad that’s not good enough for you and that you just decided to stop caring. 3) Stupid football game. haha. 4)...
And to think i knew what i wanted.
I like where we are When we drive in your car I like where we are: here
today was incredibly different than i ever imagined. i finally got what i wanted, with the outcome i was most hoping to avoid…but yet it still ended up being the best night of my life. strangely enough, i think it got me over the past. so please, just believe me when i say it isn’t a big deal. i...
Walking on pins and needles.
Lately, I find myself feeling nervous over nothing. Or at least more nervous over things than I really should. Or I just feel panicked when nothing is even going wrong. Or I feel worried about little things that are in no way significant. Or I am just easily upset. What’s wrong with me? :/
A lesson in caring.
Why do I always seem to care the most about the things that should be of least importance? I can’t focus on this essay because I’m worried about what’s happening with you…and you shouldn’t even matter to me.
You're a wizard, harry.
Do you believe in magic in a young girl’s heart How the music can free her, whenever it starts And it’s magic, if the music is groovy It makes you feel happy like an old-time movie I’ll tell you about the magic, and it’ll free your soul
It’s days like today that remind me how much i don’t want to lose you. you’re really the best friend i’ve...
Just remember life goes on.
I’m sending out a message to myself So that when I hear it on the radio I will know that I am fine
I wrote this for English. It’s about keeping your head up and remembering that all your problems will seem less significant once they’ve passed. But more importantly, it’s a reminder to myself to stay positive while I deal with all this crap.
Sonnet 1 Like eager...
Failing to focus in this blury world.
And I get weak. I get weary I miss sleep. I get moody I’m in thoughts. I write songs I’m in love. I walk on
It seems as if lately it’s impossible to just be happy. I mean…it’s not that I’m not happy, it’s just that no matter how happy I am, all these little worries linger in the back of my mind. It’s like my thoughts and emotions got together...
I could definitely use a map.
I’m feeling lost. Or maybe just like i lost something. I just don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what I think. I don’t know what I believe.
Quotes of the Day
From The Perfect Man
“I heard once that love is friendship on fire, and that’s how I feel about you.”
“New people are only new for a day, but after that, they’re just people.”
It's break time.
Girl, put your records on, Tell me your favourite song Just go ahead, let your hair down
It’s been a super good friday. It went a little something like this:
*Relaxed and laughed a lot during calculus *Passed a spanish exam *Payed little attention in orchestra *Attempted an essay during lunch *Actually felt intelligent during English *Made a rather interesting bulletin board ...
Personally, I have enough time.
“I wouldn’t want an extra hour in the day, because if it was given to me, they’d probably just make me work another five hours every week.” —my mom.
i must say, she makes a good point. more time would be useless if we couldn’t just use it for fun.
I still don't know what to do.
another seven hour conversation, but all i can think is what am i getting myself into? i know you say it will all be okay with us now, but i’m still really not sure. You said it yourself: we have too much conflict as long as the rest of the world is in existence. I’m going to try this, I’m will to see where this goes, but if i start to pull away please just let me go.
Late at night.
when i think the most, when i miss you most.
Only five months left.
As we go on, we remember All the times we had together
Let me countdown the days in this ever-changing, ever-continuing blog. :]
01/06: Cast off :D 01/07-10: Consumer Electronics Show 01/11-14: Semester Exams 01/18: Martin Luther King, Jr. Day (No School)
02/06: High School Solo/Ensemble Festival 02/09: Orchestra Pre-Festival Concert 02/13: Middle School Solo/Ensemble Festival 02/15:...
BFF forever.
You’re my sunshine and I want you to know That my feelings are true I really love you Oh you’re my best friend
It’s been a long time since I’ve really felt like I’ve had a bestfriend, but now I’ve found the two of you. And I hope you both know that you mean the world to me. Thanks for always being there when I need to vent and I’m being a pain. ...
Clueless
You’ve got a fast car And i’ve got a ticket to anywhere Maybe we can make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere
i wrote this for a college essay, but as it turns out, i really like what i said. :] It would be so easy to make a list of things I do not know. It would be a list of random things and unanswered questions. It would contain things I’ve never known and...
